Epic-ness is coming!

I owe an apology for my last post. I dwelt on the bad and didn't focus on the good. The other side of my story that I should've shared was that after I'd composed myself in church and managed to stop the crying, it dawned on me that I'd allowed myself to feel my feelings. Right there on the spot. I felt it, I dealt with it, and I let it go. Score one point for team Becki! Someday I'll learn to let it go sooner than I did Sunday, but I think just allowing myself to feel it in the moment was awesome! It wasn't so long ago that I'd have stuffed it down and held onto it and used it as ammo in my, "I'm worthless" campaign.

So… tonight's the night! I'm going over to my parents' house and asking my dad to read that book because I think it'll help him. It's funny, every now and again I get excited butterflies, but I haven't yet gotten nervous ones.

Religious people do this thing called "Fasting." If you don't know what that is, it's where you sacrifice food and water for a period of time (usually not longer than 24 hours) to become more Spiritually clear on things you've been praying about. I have a medical condition that makes it virtually impossible to fast, so I haven't fasted in years. I wanted to Spiritual clarity that comes from it though, so I've opted to fast from my phone, rather than food. I'm not glued to my phone like a lot of people are, but I use it enough to need to charge it every few hours. I was just going to leave it home, but I decided to bring it with me because of the mind set of people nowadays. Perhaps if they couldn't have gotten a hold of me on my mobile phone they'd start panicking and thinking something bad happened. So I brought it with me *just* so I can answer any phone calls that may come in. But it's in my desk drawer and I haven't touched it.

I plan on listening to past sermons/talks all day, listening to hymns, and praying for inspiration whenever possible. This is going to be epic, I can feel it.

B