Child-Like Faith

Sorry I haven't written in a while. I just couldn't decide on anything to say. And I was going to post this yesterday, but the day got away from me, so you're getting it today. :)

Tuesday, in my meeting, someone brought up having child-like faith. It got me thinking about what that really means. And if I have it. To start it off, I turned to… you guessed it! Google! Google says Child-Like means:


child·like
/ˈCHīldˌlīk/

adjective
adjective: childlike; adjective: child-like

: resembling or suggesting a child : like that of a child; especially : having or showing the pleasing qualities (such as innocence) that children often have, marked by innocence, trust, and ingenuousness

(of an adult) having good qualities associated with a child.

"she speaks with a childlike directness"

synonyms:

innocent, artless, guileless, unworldly, unsophisticated, naive, ingenuous, trusting, unsuspicious, unwary, credulous, gullible; unaffected, without airs, uninhibited, natural, spontaneous; informal: wet behind the ears

Well, I'm getting better on the innocence part, I need to do better on the trust, but I'm not sure how, and ingenuous… well, I wasn't sure what that meant. It means, "Free from reserve, restraint, or dissimulation; candid; sincere." I am getting better in that area, I speak up much sooner than I used to.

So apparently I'm moving on to a new topic because I just can't get this out of my head. Jon had another bad night at school last night. He comes home and I'm the one that gets yelled at. I'm not complaining about that, because I get it. The point I'm getting to is that I am just so tired of being his rock. I'm sick of being his cheerleader. How do I get back to that place I was where I wasn't worn down by his doubts and I encouraged him to do everything he could think of? Now, when he has a bad day and comes home to rag at me, I just want to tell him to quit. That's what he wants to do anyway, right? I'm tired of holding his hand and guiding him through his emotions. I had to figure out my mine-field, why should it be my job to figure out his too??

I know this is the wrong attitude to have, I should be excited to help him and lift him up. I've been praying…. Wow… I've been praying for the wrong thing. I've been asking for ways for me to help him, but I need to be praying for the desire to help him. The desire to be there for him, to support him, and share in his yoke.

And, now I'm happy I digressed. :) I think it does tie back to child-like faith though. I need to trust in Jon, be unsuspicious, unwary… I wonder if that'll help me get back the love I feel like I've lost for him. Interesting turn this took.

B