Resentment – Done.

First, sorry I haven't written in a while. I was off camping and enjoying this beautiful Earth!

Second, just now, this very moment, I have finished my resentment list. When I finished, I closed it with a prayer. I am feeling the strangest sensation though. I feel light, free, like a heavy load has been lifted from my chest. But I also feel empty and anxious that the empty will just fill up with new resentments.

One day at a time.

I wonder what affect this will have on me going forward. I wonder if I'll feel this weird empty for long or if it'll slowly disappear as I realize I don't need to hold on to these silly things. I also know there's one more thing in me. One more thing lurking, but I don't know what it is. I feel that something happened to me when I was 7 years old. For some reason I keep thinking Christmas time – that would have been the winter of 1986-1987. Whatever it is, it's just out of my mind's eye.

Anyway, I feel that if I can figure that last puzzle piece out, I'll FINALLY be whole. Doesn't mean I can just coast through life though. :) I'll have to keep this stuff up forever in order to not let it build up as badly as it did.

Good luck in your recovery!

B